the NERVE!why d0 stupid guys always cho0se me to be their tester??!or is it really my fault to fall for them!? i hate my life!argh..from now i'm single for three years!stupid boys really play w/ my heart!!good thing i am smart enough to get over them really fast! HE is a whore..f*ckin b*tch(you dont wanna know who 'HE' is)..kill HE,die HE, BURN to DEATH! i do believe in KARMA..hope karma for him will be fast..and i think his karma really is FAST!HAHA!!but its okay..nothing i can do about it!i'm just thankful that our FLING is over..!


el bandidos bonded alot nga pala..!and im so proud of them(sa iba nga lang hndi)..but really, being w/ them makes me feel so happy,uberly filled w/ joy..FUN!FUN!FUN!,secured,n0t alone,cared and most esp. loved!!!kaya nga eh tama sabi ni mike--> okay na maging single bsta single lahat sa barkada!g0od to be single w/them by my side..hahaha!



Exam week..tsk tsk..so damn hard..i wasnt really studying that much but i did study.!i find some of the exams hard..lalo na ung math!god...but anyway,,grades really doesnt matter..i mean, the intelligence of a person should not be measured by its grades at school!TRUTH: i measure one's intelligence through the way he/she talks, grades are no BIGdeal to me actually..althoug it may affect but not to0 much..



GIRLFRIENDS..yeah miss my girls..miss them so0o much!!

VARSITY?: am i still a varsity?i dont feel like one..maybe because i havent been training for almost a month..!and hard feelings are all in my head..!but as my mentality about life says: "if you cant do anything about it, then just deal w/it" so i guess it does makes sense that even though i hate some people around me i just have to stay and deal w/everything..so yeah, varsity it is..!em sorry coach..lazy me..i hate me i hate me!HAHA!

SEMBREAK: ow meeen..sembreak's killin me!!i hate it..you know what i always wish for?is that for students to have their sembreaks at school doing nothing..yeah!!to be w/friends and do alot of fun stuffs!!i know it sounds crazy but it really is FUN...em so excited to go to school..bored stiff here!i mean, SUPER BORED STIFF HERE!! kain-tulog...that's what i'm doing..TEXT,SLEEP,EAT then EAT again then SLEEP..i hate my life!good thing i went to mikay's and astrid's..

MIKAY's: it was FUN..FUN..FUN..FUN!superFUN..videoke,session,asaran moment,uwian..!i miss them..wooohooo!

ASTRID's: yeah..superFUN also..me,mara,jean,bris and trid went to trid's house and just watch movie..and guess wat?we hunt ghosts!!wahaha!it sounds creepy but it seems to me that weve found a ghost.HAHA!em gonna send the pic wen trid finally uploaded them..!the picture made astrid cry..its really shocking and goosebumps really came out wen i saw the pic..!during that moment, its like were playing "SHUTTER" taking pictures to find ghosts.HAHA!we disturbed the whole neighbors of astrid and mara.HAHA!


ME?! em happy..as far as i can see i'm okay..hmmm,,more than okay?aha,,never BETTER!!!with my friends beside me,i forget my worries forever.their my LIFE,LOVE,WORLD..FYI: my family is included to be my friends..



i hope you guys are happy too..we shouldnt have to waste our time filling up our eyes w/tears..cheer up guys!!happiness is just ahead of us so get up and grab it..!!!

long time no update ha!..i got bored to this bloggy thing these rescent days(dunno why!)..maybe because i wasn't that inspired anymore.. but that's okay coz now I'M BACK!!

i'm over him na..sa bibi ku..well i just realized and pushed my mind to the fact that--> "IN LIFE, WE CAN'T HAVE EVERYTHING WE WANTED." and besides there's no choice dba?i don't want to play stupid things w/him and w/ life anymore..and i really dont wanna suffer and add more fuel to the fire.. kaya ayun..just forget about him, about everything, about the fact that i became head over heels inlove w/him and w/his damn attitude. that's super over!

may bago ba?ano ba bago sakin?..wala naman..i'm so happy for myself for moving on, on my own!ofcourse w/the help of my friends and some special people out there, i didnt find my moving on days hard.. thanks to them..!Having bibi a part of my life isnt that painful actually. But it really changed my outlook in life..it really changed the way i usually think about love and about life alot! Before, my motto about love is that to take every chance of it,that love will only pass once, and we never know if that love is whether real/true and whether if that's for a lifetime already, so why let it go, if trying it may help us find out FOREVER LOVE.. but now, i find love as a long waiting process that even though i know to myself that i already feel the love i still think super twice about it and came the thought of--" if that's love is really is for me, then it'll wait no matter how long i keep it waiting.." ewan ko ba!!pero siyempre i do entertain them.."fling-fling" gnun, wag nga lang sana matutuloy sa love.. siyempre for now, that's my outlook..outlooks are made to change naman eh..we can never predict our future nor our perspectives to the coming days and years dba?kaya sa ngayon lang yan..if i get SUPERMAXIMODUPER inlove again..patay ako diyan baka mabalik sa dating outlook ulit

 

 

ngayon..mejo machaya na..unmn..HAHA!masaya magpakasaya!!ang speaking of happiness..saya saya nung kela nevee!eto pics o..andali..


Hardiharhar..La lang..ang pam pam nung katabi ko..picture kmi ni baby shan eh..

Ayan..with papa wilbur.=)) ultimate crushie ko.HAHA!laki respeto ko jan sa hinayupak na yan..muka kasing babyboy eh..I'm a lil bit tipsy by then..

Mikay..me..majo!HAHA..saya namin..!super pula ko naman..gnun ba tlga pag intsik?aaargh!!pero danda nung pic..you can really see how happy we were together!!
HAHA!ito pa isa..parang kami lang ni gie nag pic..

madami pa tlga pics kaso ito lang kinuha ko eh..Bsta masaya ko nung araw na yan..la lang masaya lang..

moving on is really hard! but when things are already upside down,,, we have no choice but to move on..to protect ourselves, to avoid ourselves from getting hurt..although we're already hurt, moving on is for us to avoid ourselves from getting hurt more..(tama ba?) haha!wrong grammar ata na hndi?..ayus lang yun we have this "creative lisence" dba?HAHA!anyway, no time for joke..its already late..got to sleep na!


a little share: ang saya pala ng araw ko ngayon i realized that one best way of moving on is to learn how to appreciate little things other people give to you. i appreciate gie pala HAHA! kaya masaya ko na hndi..labo?




Dear God,

make me a bird so i can fly far, far away..far from here, far from the pain, far from him..